UPDATE ON ROCKY AND ME

Well the days are just passing by....Rocky is still on strict crate rest, he is doing well I think.  I only let him out to potty and eat.  The other day he seemed so good, I let him walk around a bit longer, and he was paying for it by that evening.  I blamed myself and fretted big time....lol.  So back to crate and quick little breaks.  At first he wasn't drinking water, now seems he is having problems with constipation :(  So I am giving him pumpkin, and tomorrow will try a bit of mineral oil.  It might be the back/leg weakness doing it.  It is all...minute by minute....sometimes that is all I can think of....

As for me, I have four 20 mg Cymbalta capsules left, I will take one every other day, and that is the end...I feel no different really.  This has taken four weeks to get to this point.  I am very emotional now, with Rocky and some family issues...I would anxious be on med's too.  But the medication does dull emotion, anxiety but also happiness.  Good with the bad... So this crying is new to me, but it feels good to FEEL again.  I hope to be able to get by with no medication...again, minute by minute.  All in Gods hands, I try to live my life in a different way now, instead of reaching for food, shopping...bitching and complaining...I STOP, and try to "get out of my head".

So, that is about it for now.  I need to change my way of thinking and reacting.  I can't tell you how many times a day, I think of this simple prayer...and recite it!

So BLESSED...

This morning I am feeling so blessed and saying thank you. Last month on this day, we were in the hospital with mom and she was awaiting her heart catheterization. This was the first step to her open heart surgery. We gathered and tried to get her mind off things, trying to keep her (and us) positive, we prayed we asked others to pray…and pray you did. And our prayers were answered. For that I am very grateful and mom and dad are very grateful.
She did great, her stay in CCU was only two days, and her stay in the hospital was much shorter than expected. Her trip to rehab, now that was hat she feared most, and she did so well that she was released from there quickly as well. We all see this as God’s will….but I am so proud of my mom, because she also has a very strong will and we are all so happy to see that.
So continue to fight mom, and do what you are told to do…I am so proud of you and I love you and Dad very much.
Thank you to each and everyone of my friends and family, my art friends, FB friends, Etsy friends, personal friends and people whom we didn’t know…prayers mean so much and I appreciate them all~

OIL RIG DISASTER

With a very heavy heart I write this post. Although I don not know if anyone I know is effected by this tragedy, I am still overwhelmed with sadness. As some of you know, my husband Steve has worked offshore for 20+ years, with Shell Oil. This is one of my worst nightmares; it is a very dangerous job. So many people we know and love are also in this family of oilfield workers, many of us right her in Southern La. and Mississippi, although scattered all over the world. I just want to take the time to offer many prayers to the families of all these courageous men and women who risk their lives daily. If you pray, please send up prayers for them...