OVER THE 5 POUND MARK

Lordy.....
hello, finally I have passed that first milestone....good grief.  But this is 5 pounds that will not be back....I will tell you that.

I am in my 5th week of the new Weight Watcher's, and I have finally hit 5 pounds.  I can not say that I am not impatient and wanting these pounds to melt off quicker....because I am!  I finally got it thru my head at this last meeting, that I am NOT going to lose like I used too....I honestly think my body likes this weight, probably feels good and squishy on the inside.....lol.  But it has to go. 
My leader reviewed my journal and said I was not eating enough...go figure.  I am eating all of my points, but the choices are not the best, need more protein!  And I am not eating the 49 reserved points.  So this week, a new week....I will eat more protein and drink more water and use those points.  Also need to bump up the heart rate.  I am walking and at a good pace, but apparently my body is now used to it.  And I will incorporate weights...So hopefully the next 5 will come quicker....
But still no need for anti-depressants and I am thrilled for that.  I am embracing the emotions I feel again....and the pople I love are forced to as well, because it doesn't take much to cry...

TRYING TO FIND MY WAY...

Well, here I am three weeks into my diet. I started out with drive and good intentions. I have leveled off into, just getting by. Squeaking by managing to drop a bit weekly, but am I focused? NO... So each week I am renewed in my intentions and hopeful for a good week.

I have been reflecting lately and I think some of my anxiety symptoms are returning, or have they never gone far? Who knows... I wish there was a pill to take to "live in the moment". I have a true desire to do so, but I can never wrap my mind around it. I do know people who can do it, and I envy that, so much. I live in my head... and wish to get out of my head sometimes. So I carry on and try to make the changes I wish to change. If there is a self help book for doing so, please let me know!

WEIGHT WATCHERS ONLINE- WEEK 1

Ok, well here it is the end of the dreaded week one. I did well, didn't agonize over food, and didn’t have any horrible guilt feelings or "bad" feelings. I had a bit of a hurdle on Friday, my co-workers birthday and she wanted take out from Chile's. We got appetizers, yikes...but I only ate half. And a small, small piece of cake.
Soooooo, 3 pounds down...

I am happy with the results.  I feel good about myself, and I know this is up to me and only me to do or not do.  Today I choose DO!
Now I only worked out 2 times this week, and that is what I will work on this upcoming week.  More workouts.  I am enjoying my Wii Fit, but need to do it more often.