inspiration and some creativity

So while I am happy to be home, I am still struggling with finding myself again.  I still worry about Mom and Dad, I am trying to find my old routine (did I have one?) and I was getting a bit hopeless that I would find my artistic spark... I felt the desire to create, I just couldn't get motivated and I was NOT gentle with myself...
While blogging I found a post about this book, Jesus Calling.

 I wish I could remember who's blog, I would thank her.  I picked this book up, it is a devotional book, written as God would talk to you.  I went to the yesterdays date and started reading.  Just like that, I read these words "Accept each day as it comes to you" and I knew it would be my inspiration.  Then I came home and glanced on my art table, two Frozen Charlotte's left in my stash... and then I saw an old vintage metal clip sort of thing... and then I had it back... my creativity took over and I didn't think...I just did...
This is what I came up with...

have you seen my muse?

Edouard Manet’s painting

I know, I know...be gentle with her...she is just hanging back waiting until you sort things out...or is she?
I feel like I want to create, I NEED to create and work out some stress and anxiousness...but what do I make, Do I paint, collage, I know, an assemblage?  See my problem?  I am not  allowing myself to be still enough to listen for her. 
Before I left for Pa. I was in such a happy place in my artwork, I loved doing what I was doing.  I had ideas when I dreamed of being back at my work table, where did they go?  Part of my problem is this, my feelings are all over the place, I have many racing thoughts still, I am trying to find my balance at home... I have stale and stagnate shops, 3 of them... I do want to JUMP in... but I feel as if there is no direction to go.  I might be over thinking this, and MIGHT be adding to much drama...lol...hopefully soon I will report that I sat down and just let myself go in a direction, that felt right for me.  I am looking at a very clean and tidy art table... I don't like it...