|Edouard Manet’s painting|
I know, I know...be gentle with her...she is just hanging back waiting until you sort things out...or is she?
I feel like I want to create, I NEED to create and work out some stress and anxiousness...but what do I make, Do I paint, collage, I know, an assemblage? See my problem? I am not allowing myself to be still enough to listen for her.
Before I left for Pa. I was in such a happy place in my artwork, I loved doing what I was doing. I had ideas when I dreamed of being back at my work table, where did they go? Part of my problem is this, my feelings are all over the place, I have many racing thoughts still, I am trying to find my balance at home... I have stale and stagnate shops, 3 of them... I do want to JUMP in... but I feel as if there is no direction to go. I might be over thinking this, and MIGHT be adding to much drama...lol...hopefully soon I will report that I sat down and just let myself go in a direction, that felt right for me. I am looking at a very clean and tidy art table... I don't like it...