Friday, August 26, 2011
a long wait
Since Mom fell 2 weeks ago and broke her hip, this has been an emotional roller coaster. For all of us...I decided to stay put until Sunday, as my Dad is also having back surgery Monday. He wanted to put it off, and I think still struggles with it, but he is in pain and has been for way to long...thanks to healthcare in this country...but finally was able to have his MRI and get his answer to the pain.
I have been waiting and wondering, once I am able to see for myself and see my parents, I know I will feel better and be ready to do everything I can to help. I have held most of this in, didn't want to chat on Facebook much because I knew Dad might be upset knowing how upset I was...although, he knows. Dad's know...
Last week brought a set back for mom, she wasn't able to put weight on her leg that was effected by the break, her re-hab was painful so a trip to the surgeon and x-rays showed 2 more stress fractures. Mom has Osteoporosis and this is the cause. I am afraid this will be a lengthy re-hab and I am just praying and praying she will be able to stay focused and get past the fears of being in a skilled care and be able to do the things she must do. I am fearful that I will be away from home, miss my husband and not have him to lean on. I know there are many life lessons in this experience and I think finding my way, might just be one of them. Living this far from them, will be so hard. I just can't stop my mind from projecting ahead and I know that does no good, at all!!!! So praying also for me, for the strength and guidance to be able to do just that.
I am not sure how this will play out, I know it is all in God's hands, but at least the time is approaching that I can be there...I hope the rest just falls into place.