prayers

A call from my sister yesterday, sent me into a tail spin.  My mom had fallen in her bedroom and they called the ambulance to take her to the hospital.  I was in Walmart picking up things for a dinner guest, I was in utter shock.  I have feared this for so long, mom is so frail and RA has invaded much of her body.  Her bones are so fragile, it happened.
She is in Pennsylvania, I am in Louisiana as many of you know.  Finally I got the word, that her hip was fractured.  She is headed to surgery soon, they will do a partial replacement. I am overwhelmed by the prayers coming her way, via Facebook.  My sister also reached out to her contacts, I know she is being prayed for.  I am very worried and almost numb...My Dad was scheduled for back surgery on the 29th, I am so wanting him to go ahead with it, as he has been suffering with pain for 3 months.  We can ask them to consider, but it will be his decision.  I do think mom will be facing re-hab afterwards and this is her big fear... she thinks nursing home when she hears re-hab.  But she did it with her heart surgery a year ago, and did well.  I hope for the same this time and a short stay.
So many emotions today, I am trying as best I can to stay in the moment and not let fear take over my thoughts. It is so hard for me to do...a lesson in this, I know it....I need to quiet myself and listen for it.
I am trying to decide when to go, what to do, how long can I stay... my heart wants me there now, but I talked with my dad and think I will sit tight until we know more.  I feel so alone in my decision, I feel conflict in my head and from those around me... I don't need that. 
Update: I spoke to my sweet momma, so happy all went well.  I needed to hear her voice and know she was safe.  I hope she recovers quickly and does all she can to get through her re-hab and move forward.  

a trouble tree

I found this on beliefnet.com...

The carpenter I hired to help me restore an old farmhouse had just finished a rough first day on the job. A flat tire made him lose an hour of work, his electric saw quit, and now his ancient pickup truck refused to start.

While I drove him home, he sat in stony silence.

On arriving, he invited me in to meet his family. As we walked toward the front door, he paused briefly at a small tree, touching tips of the branches with both hands.

When opening the door, he underwent an amazing transformation. His tanned face was wreathed in smiles, and he hugged his two small children and gave his wife a kiss.

Afterward he walked me to the car. We passed the tree, and my curiosity got the better of me. I asked him about what I had seen him do earlier.

"Oh, that's my trouble tree," he replied. "I know I can't help having troubles on the job, but one thing's for sure, troubles don't belong in the house with my wife and the children. So I just hang them up on the tree every night when I come home. Then in the morning I pick them up again.

"Funny thing is," he smiled, "when I come out in the morning to pick 'em up, there ain't nearly as many as I remember hanging up the night before."

I don't know who first told this story-no one seems to know-but he or she must have been a very wise person. Putting boundaries around our problems is a really good idea-it prevents our difficulties from spilling over onto other people (especially loved ones), who can't do anything about our problems. Why burden them if they can't help us?

So, plant yourself a trouble tree outside your front door-or a potted trouble plant, if you live in an apartment-and use it whenever you come home.

Be grateful that you have loved ones to go home to, even if your loved one is simply your beloved dog or cherished cat or prized goldfish.

And when you pick up your troubles on the way out each morning, be grateful that they're not as heavy as they were the night before.

Read more: http://www.beliefnet.com/Inspiration/Inspired-Faith/Learning-to-Dance-in-the-Rain/Plant-a-Trouble-Tree.aspx#ixzz1SIypieuQ

thank you Lori...

Many times we can overwhelm ourselves worrying about things that might or might not happen in the future. If something is bothering you, then take care of it. If there is nothing you can do about it now, and you trust God, then turn it over to Him. Either way, try to address and release your worry. 

~Elmer Laydon