I write this today, and I am so happy to say...I am in a good place. I thought about this post last night before I fell off to sleep, I was remembering what I was grateful for...
I have felt so disconnected, some of you know...my life has been a bit of a coaster in the past year or so, with ups and downs and some parts of it very scary. But thank the Lord, everyone is healthy now and recovering. I took the huge step forward to take care of myself, to go back on my medication and to seek a counselor to help me find my way once more. I knew the feeling of depression hitting me, and I also knew how hard I have worked in the past couple years...to be the best I can be. (and bust my butt, if need be to do it.)
Suddenly I saw myself as a jigsaw puzzle. And I saw the pieces fitting together.
I know the labels on these puzzle pieces that I have been able to put in place. I also know the labels on the "missing" pieces that have not found their place. I will keep those to myself for now...but I am happy I saw this in my mind last night, to show me how far I have come. I had an appointment with my counselor yesterday, and she was thrilled to see me and shared her feelings of how she see's me now. I have a ways to go, I am refining what I want to work on and that is my homework for the next visit. I feel I have found CLARITY, in what sent me to her...and now I will just fine tune...until more pieces fall into place. WOW, when I chose "clarity" for my word of 2012, I had no idea...how much of an impact that word would have on me...and it is only March......
If and when these road blocks pop up, I know I can go back to my word...and remember where I am am now.
I am not where I want to be, but I not where I was either....
Thanks for listening to my rambling thoughts...Sometimes I keep these things to myself, and sometimes I feel like I should be sharing them. Today I feel like I am meant to share, xo.
