to whom it may concern....oh, that's me

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 Dear fitness God...I noticed that I am finally shrinking...hips down. Now do tell me, when might I expect to see some shrinking in the belly region? I faithfully come to the gym, mostly 5 days a week... and have pretty much given up my beloved wine, unless a special occasion creeps up!!!! Work with me here, not touching that scale, going by inches...I have come to far to get pissy over a number on the scale. Next we will talk about my flabby arms....

second chances

In this time of Thanksgiving...
I am thankful for: second chances...

"Develop a positive attitude and awareness.  Expect the best and look for the good.  Become conscious of opportunities and very often you will find them right under your nose.  Second chances can be quiet and disguised -- one has to be on the lookout for them."
 Let Go + Positive Attitude + Perseverance = Second Chances

I find myself still very much in transition, or something!  I have tried to be quiet and take a break, but find myself  going back to the things I feel I thought I needed a break from.  So maybe after all, I do not need the break.
I worry so much about my parents and their recovery at home...they are moving forward but still much stress for them both.  I feel unconnected, out of the loop but in my heart I know a visit right now is not a good thing.  Soon, I hope...
I miss my Rocky, so much.  It is close to a month now, that he has been gone and some days it feels like yesterday.  I still look for him and I know my other two dogs do as well, I just miss his silly face...
I worried I was headed towards Depression...I went to see my Dr.  We talked and discussed the fact that life has been hard the past year, I had done well without any anxiety medication, January will be a year I am without it.  He didn't think now was the time to go back on a medication, maybe counseling would be a better fit.  I agreed.  I can not see anyone until Dec. 9th, eeekkkk.  So I look forward to this new path, I want to be happy...I want to quit worrying...I can not let negative people bring me down further...Yes, I have a lot of "wants"...
On a very positive note, I have kept up a good routine of going to the gym.  I am up to 60 minutes of cardio and I am working up to the weight machine routines.  I feel so much better when I go to the gym, and have even entertained the idea of going twice a day...(I live very close)
AND I tuned 50, there I said it!!!!
So here is to second chances... xo

welcome back, routine

So, happy to relax enough to get back to my walking.  (lets face it, the more days that go by without it, the harder it is to get back into it)  We all know that, right?
Now I am sure I would have felt better the past few days, if I would have taken the time to JUST DO IT!  But that is not how I work, but I did dig out and dust off and I feel better for it.  Terribly hot here in South Louisiana, so for now it is work out dvd's, then returning soon to dog walking in the evenings.
Mom is doing pretty well, she is still in the hospital but probably moving to the re-hab facility today.  I know she will do well, her motivation will be returning home. I think Dad's plans for his back surgery are still a go, we are allowing him to call the shots, of course.  I think I am going to get my plane tickets and start my planning process...we have a much clearer picture now.  Fear and worry is still there, but at least I am not consumed by it now and I am planning ahead.  whew... onward...