Friday, August 12, 2011
She is in Pennsylvania, I am in Louisiana as many of you know. Finally I got the word, that her hip was fractured. She is headed to surgery soon, they will do a partial replacement. I am overwhelmed by the prayers coming her way, via Facebook. My sister also reached out to her contacts, I know she is being prayed for. I am very worried and almost numb...My Dad was scheduled for back surgery on the 29th, I am so wanting him to go ahead with it, as he has been suffering with pain for 3 months. We can ask them to consider, but it will be his decision. I do think mom will be facing re-hab afterwards and this is her big fear... she thinks nursing home when she hears re-hab. But she did it with her heart surgery a year ago, and did well. I hope for the same this time and a short stay.
So many emotions today, I am trying as best I can to stay in the moment and not let fear take over my thoughts. It is so hard for me to do...a lesson in this, I know it....I need to quiet myself and listen for it.
I am trying to decide when to go, what to do, how long can I stay... my heart wants me there now, but I talked with my dad and think I will sit tight until we know more. I feel so alone in my decision, I feel conflict in my head and from those around me... I don't need that.
Update: I spoke to my sweet momma, so happy all went well. I needed to hear her voice and know she was safe. I hope she recovers quickly and does all she can to get through her re-hab and move forward.