This one is still on my heart, but it has eased...I know it is not about me.
It seems I have lost a Dear friend. The hard part, is I do not know why. It came at a time I was stressed, scared, and just at the height of anxiousness. This is the part that hurts the most, she knows exactly how I was feeling and knows how I react to this type of life event. And yet, she left without a word. I use the word cowardly, because I feel it was. Un-friended on FB, seems so childish for the friendship we had, or I thought we had. But that is how I found out. I have learned to live with her choice, I just hope she considered it long and hard...to cause this fracture.
I say I am over it, have quit talking about it to my family and friends. Yet, here I am... It takes time and maybe one day I will understand it. I don't want to understand it right now, I am still to raw from it. I don't want to hear her side now. One day, that will be my question to her, why?
It has been an eye opener, for sure. I have many friends and I am ok. But I will be more guarded with whom I love as a 'true' friend.