Sunday, June 19, 2011
feeling disconnected today
My Dad has been suffering with hip pain, for close to 2 months, he is finally seeing an ease of it, with deep tissue massage and chiropractor care, and now physical therapy. They have had a terrible time of it. And now Mom.
Our trip is planned but any new news can spark a sudden departure. All is good, I don't have to worry about my job, since I quit. (another long story)
Old habits flooded back to me, I gave in to isolation when I heard this news. I don't want to isolate, but that is what I know. I didn't sleep much, but I "listened" and "felt" for my truth... and today is a better day. I told my husband I love him and I do not mean to turn away...I asked God to let me practice what I have learned...and I feel I will be in a better frame of mind and not run to the worst case scenario, this morning I have talked to the nurses, my Mom a couple times and my Dad. I will remember to be grateful...she is in the best place right now to battle this infection, Dad is healing and each day brings him a bit more relief. I am a proud daughter, my life has lead me on our own journey to find our way, I wish it had been closer to them...but they are never far from my thoughts and in my heart, always.