Tuesday, February 16, 2010

WEIGHT

My number 1 complaint in my life right now, today...is my weight. This is NOT unknown territory for me you see, I have raged this battle before. Let me quickly catch you up, for those who know me, sorry you have to endure this again. I wasn't a fat kid, but a chubby adolescent. I met my husband very young and we married young. I was raging a battle with food at that time and he was in the Navy. He was gone a lot, I was lonely and I ate. When we got married I was at my heaviest, about 200 pounds. I am 5' 4" tall. I was a big'en. I stayed that way until I was 29 years old. I lived in Ca. and a friend who also was overweight said “let’s go to Weight Watchers”. I knew I was fat, but I went for her. I loved it; she didn't make it...lol. I continued to go until I reached my goal weight of 130 pounds. It took me 9 months.
Fast forward years...always maintained my weight give or take 5- 10 pounds.  (My perfect weight was about 135-140) Then I turned 40, and soon was diagnosed with Anxiety Disorder. Welcome to peri-menopause and anti-depressants… I have steadily, but slowly gained 25-30 pounds. I am not happy; I haven't been...but have done nothing really to lose this weight. I might get 10 pounds off, but before long it creeps back on. I know I must move more and work harder, but I stay on my pity pot and do nothing really!

So today I am doing it, walking the walk and talking the talk...I joined Weight Watchers Online, Sunday evening.  Climbed on my scale, didn't lie and said I weighed 171!!!!  *scream*  But with the help of WW and my blog...I am going to hold myself accountable and do it.  *repeats mantra over and over in her head* If not now, when?  So that is enough for today, and for now.  I thought this would be hard to do, but nope, feels good.  Feels right.... for now anyways...

7 comments:

  1. Kathy, I can certainly sympathize with you.... it's a battle all too many women face, including me. I need to work up the initiative to do something about it. It sounds as if you have, which is half the battle. Good Luck and you go girl!!

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  2. Oh, Kathy, I feel your pain! The big "M" is what put the lbs on for me too. They just settled in and got nice and comfy, too. I've done WW in the past and it worked well...not the online version, but the actual meetings. I might give online a try,too.

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  3. Well Darlin, here we are fighting for the pounds to fall off, and they will. You can do this and so can I. It is not easy, if it were easy everyone would be thin. It really does come down to one day at a time. If you mess up on day, start over the next. I hope that we can help each other in this....do it for you!
    Hugs, Mary

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  4. Good for you, Kathy. You'll do it! I admire your determination & honesty

    (I really need to check out that link. Sadly I'm still dabbling with denial.)

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  5. I am lending my support and doing WW at the same time as you! If you did it before you can do it again, Kathy.

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  6. I finally bit the bullet last week and signed up for WW (again)...I know it's how I should eat--to lose weight and my diabetes. And I know it works--lost 9.6 lbs the first week! Second week is far harder! Good luck!!! (If you need an online WW buddy you can find me as curlz1205)

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  7. Hi Kathy,
    I feel like you do right now, turning 52 this year and never been this chubby in my life and I am a short little thing so even a bit of weight looks bad on me. I started a new anti depressant 4 years ago and I believe that is a factor in the weight gain too along with pre menopause.
    I have pondered about joining WW online, my daughter did it and loved it. So I think reading your post has inspired me to get over there and sign up :)

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